Of Thought and Wind

When There’s Nothing to say

My Love,

The sun lights up this evening slightly less than your smile would. These words fill these pages slower than my love of you fills my heart. Each mile that separates you from my arms is a silent marker of every step that I will take to get there. For now, I leave you these words. They are a tiny piece of me, stitched letter by letter into this tapestry of meaning.

It is nights like these that I find myself at a loss for words. Not because I have nothing to say, quite the contrary. I find too many disparate thoughts running through my head. And like a man chasing the wind I run down the hillside grasping at the air, trying to catch that which I cant. If it were sound, it wouldn’t be static noise. it would be more like hearing snippets of familiar tunes without ever being able to fully remember the song.

You have always known how much I love to share what I’m thinking with you. No matter the topic, no matter how deep, dark or convoluted. I love that you love complexity and that light that shines in your eyes as you puzzle out the nuance is something I would die for. No. Live for. and in moments like these, I get the nagging feeling of failure. No, not from you, my love. But from me. I feel that I have failed to engage. And yet I recognize the importance of these moments.

They are the silent evenings gazing at the stars. They are the comfortable moments filled with music. They are the moments from which meditation is born. They are the quiet hugs and the unseen kisses. They are truly precious moments. Moments when words cannot be enough.

Moments when words will never be enough.

Tonight is one of those nights. A night of suspense and wonder. A night where the painting hangs unfinished on the wall, the tapestry slightly unraveled. I will most likely put down this digital pen and stare at the white patterned artificial sky above my head. I will most likely sink into thoughts and chase them as they run wild across my mental landscape. I will think of tomorrow, and the day after, and the surprises and wonders that will come then. I will think of you.

Oh, I will think of you.

Yours, Always,

Lawrence

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